Most people feel well-rested and ready for the day when they wake up. Sure it’s not all smiles and sunshine, but in general, most others are ready to begin their day upon waking up. Not me. I would rather stay asleep for as long as possible, so that I can avoid waking up. I have no problem staying awake for hours on end, but something about waking up is the worst part of the day for me. Maybe it’s because I’m used to waking up beside you. Or rolling over in a state of hypnosis and running my fingers through your hair. Maybe it’s the way you smell in the morning, or the way you look; so blissfully unaware of anything but lying next to me. Secret cuddles before breakfast; Holding you close without a care in the world. When in actuality there was always something wrong going about. But in that moment of half-consciousness, we were together. No labels, no problems, no worries. Just you and I together. And I think that’s the reason why I can’t find it in myself to move from this bed. I’ve been here trying to feel your presence for four hours and the world is still moving on. Why can’t I do the same?